Why am I crap at everything? It's a serious question. Not so much WHY, but why ME?
Everything I'm good at, is easy. Like cross stitch. And cuddling. And not much else. No, seriously, name one other thing I'm good at. O, wait, some people say I'm good at writing. It's sometimes something I'm proud of, but hardly something someone else could be jealous of.
There are some things I've done which haven't been easy, like my Teaching Diploma. But I moaned the whole way through, barely enjoyed one moment of it and it's mostly a waste of time at the end of it anyway. And the paper I'm doing this semester at Vic.
Do you know what really f***ing annoys me? Those people who are good at everything. EVERYTHING. O wait, I'm married to one... OK, so maybe they don't really f***ing annoy me (I actually love him quite a lot), but I'm really envious, no, jealous of them. And yes, that makes me a small person blah blah blah.
Everything is so HARD for me. (Yes, this blog is shamelessly about ME, in case you hadn't noticed). And just when I start to enjoy something, I realise that actually I'm still crap at it, and I don't like losing. Go figure.
And don't give me that 'Mistakes help us grow' or 'Hard times make us better people' s***. That's crap. They don't help me. They don't help me grow or make me a better person, I'm growing because the time-space continuum demands so (thank you very much) and hard times make me a worse person. No, actually. They send me backwards.
And yes, I know I don't actually have it hard compared to a lot of people, but it's all relative isn't it? It's human nature, and humans are naturally quite stupid.
PS. Please don't lecture me, just say nice things. I'm a millenial after all.
3 comments:
Well, what a bad time you appear to be having. You are a sweet , clever, funny girl, and I AM jealous of your ability to write. Being good at everything isn't the be all and end all. Feeling comfortable with yourself is... ( Sorry lecture!).I am only very sorry that I was unable to instill that firmly enough in your mind as your Mum.Be who you are , thta's what we love about you.
thank you mumma xxx
YOU ARE THE BEST PENPAL I HAVE EVER HAD!!! And I've had lots! You're the only one I still write to! That has to say something about your awesomeness. I think you're swell. You are a good wife, you are a good worker, a good writer, you're funny, you're smart, you're determined, and you are probably a trillion times better at math and science (and plenty of other things) than I am. I wish I could have even one percent of your math/science brains.
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